end of the rope

I did it.

I turned in my application last week for Peace Corps!! Now it's time to wait, but at least the ball is going and is in the other court now. It's a great feeling.

My eye quit twitching. I'm pretty sure it's related to stress. Go figure. I mean, what sort of stress do I have? Just working two jobs (one in customer service, the other herding pastors, which is like herding cats!), and trying to do all my other live things like laundry and dishes and then this whole crazy "lifestyle" eating plan I'm doing. Don't get me wrong, I'm loving the work at church and I'm getting into shape, so I can't complain, but I am stressed. I'm trying a new product to see if it will help.

Today, I trained a new gal on our team. I don't think I like being a trainer. She has to write 50 perfect emails before I can release her and she got one today, barely. She's not bad, and has more potential than I first would have thought, but it's going to be a long week at this rate.

Alright, that's the news for now. I'm off to search for songs about healing for next weeks service :)

HI Emily!!!!!!!!

where have all the flowers gone?

Unplug your ears, I have no intention of breaking into song.

Thank you.

I'm just wondering where the time has gone. It's already past mid-June. I'm running around like a headless chicken, banging into every little thing. One of these days I'll drop dead just to get some rest. Until then, carry on.

I set June 30 as my date to turn in my Peace Corps application. It's mostly done, I just need to fill in a few phone numbers and names. Tonight I pounded out my first attempt for the essays. I really liked my first one, then I realized it didn't really answer the question. The English major in me balked and made me rewrite it. The second one is good, I can't complain, but it will always be second in my mind. Then, after two attempts at the first question, I tackled the second. It's too long, but that's what I have friends for. I helped Dara whittle hers down, I know she'll help me. And I have two of my needed three references on board!!

My insides are all a jumble. There is relief that I'm finally getting my application turned in, trepidation that I could actually be called up for service before the end of the year (no Christmas at home!) and excitement that this is really happening! God has opened so many doors and provided for this in every way that it's hard not to get a bit giddy about the whole thing.

Ready, change subjects.

This morning, during church, I got a twitch in my left eye. It's been going almost non-stop all day. The only time it stopped is when I took a few minutes to relax outside while talking to Dara, and when I actually came down to write my essays. It didn't even cut out when I took a nap today. It's annoying more than anything, hope it leaves soon.

Alrighty then, that's about all I have for you today. Happy day!

midnight dreary

I didn't sleep well last night. This is not a new occurrence, I don't sleep well often, but last night was bad.

For the first half of the night, I felt like I was going to hurl the contents of my tummy. For the second, I was too hot or too cold or just couldn't get comfey.

Part of the problem, I'm sure, is that I have a sticky situation that I have to respond to. I hate these. It's the one aspect of leadership that I dread. Sure, it is easy to lead when things are flowing along and everyone loves you. It's when you have to point out short comings and faults and explain them that it stinks.

I should have gotten up last night and just replied to the problem email, but that would have been bad, so I'm glad I didn't. I'm sure I would have said something without thinking and said it all badly. Still, it would have been nice to sleep.

Oh well. Hope your night was better than mine.